I love the ends. I love the way "end" breathes out, exhales, and gives you a chance for something new.
This year was broken and it was beautiful.
I fell in love with Jhumpa Lahiri's stories and Hamilton. I drank La Croix and chardonnay and Super Matcha smoothies. I watched hours of The O.C. , West Wing, and Gilmore Girls. I walked through four seasons and made new friends and had friends move away and leave and come and go. I learned more about Andrew and conveniently like him more. I accepted the fact that Chief has made me into an obsessive dog-mom (I love it).
I got to be in three of my best friend's weddings and celebrate with others!!! I got to travel to California and dance in a wine vineyard. I got to travel overseas and see London and Paris and have my eyes let light into my soul. I got to expand what I thought I knew about the world. I got to see streets I had only dreamed of and learned (once again) that traveling does not complete you, but grow you to be a better you in the home that you get to have.
I ate cheese and pasta and looked in the mirror and liked what I saw. I did millions of burpees and jump squats and ran lots of miles. I have hopes for more, but I'm learning to be a process and not a product of my failures.
I read more than ever and stayed up to date on the news and voted for Hillary Clinton. Even if my views change in the future, I felt (and feel) strongly about what I believe is important. I felt angry about the state of the environment and the hatred towards refugees. This year confirmed that I want to make the world better through education.
My heart broke for my students andI laughed with them and I thanked my lucky stars that I get to teach literature as my job!!! I spent hours at cross country meets, track practices, and basketball games. I often felt overwhelmed and I cried a lot but the Lord washed me in grace this year. I believe in myself more now than I did. I felt stretched but sustained. I let (some) of the restlessness fall away.
But the restlessness was still there. And I'm still praying for what's next.
But this year, I was here.